Happy Birthday to ME!

Today was my birthday and I am 19 years of age....it's pretty crazy! I remember being like 15 and thinking it was so sweet. I feel like I'm getting old so fast. And I don't really want to. Today was a pretty good day. Besides the fact that I had a 3 hour 8am lab and another class later, it was still a good day! I took myself to firehouse for a free sub, I went home to see my sweet mama and sister, and I went to the CHS football game to watch my sister cheer, which then got rained out, and then we went to Cheddars. I am officially pooped. Today has been a very long day. Happy Birthday to me....it's about to be over. So sad.

I'm in love with UT

First day of classes was a success. I'm seriously so obsessed with this school. I love walking everywhere, I love all the people ( well not really, I just like not knowing all the people), I love the campus, I love the buildings, I love it ALL!!! I have people in all my classes, which makes me very happy.  I'm just pumped to get this year started. I LOVE UT! GO VOLS!

YL

I am so pumped for YoungLife to finally get started again! It's a new year, with new kids and I'm ready to just take over Powell High School! Today, all 5 of us newbies went to Powell and it was just so great. I met some new friends and talked to some old ones. I've been thinking alot about the type of girls I'll end up pursuing and just who those girls will be. And slowly but surely I think Jesus is leading me to a group of senior girls. Their leader left this past year so they are without anyone right now. I would love get to know those girls and get to know their hearts. I know that they've been on my heart all summer long and I'm just so ready to get this year rolling!


School starts tomorrow and I'm like way totally super pumped...but a little nervous. The first day is so crazy. And everybody actually goes to school. I like it when people stop going to class and the crowd dies down.


I am SO ready for small group to get going again too! I MISS THOSE GIRLS!

All Moved In

I officially do not live at home and now reside at the beautiful Quarry Trail. It's so strange. I went from living at home my whole life to living in a dorm, then back home for the summer, and now a super nice apartment! I love being here. It's not exactly all set up and everything yet, but it's getting there. And it's getting more "home-y" by the day. I'll be sure to post some pictures of the place so y'all can see it. I think Jane is coming over in a little bit and I'm very pumped! I'm ready for school to start, and YOUNGLIFE! Let's get this show on the road!

My little sister is growing up!

My little sister is going to be a freshman in high school this year! And didn't quite hit me until.....830 this morning when I dropped her off at good ole CHS for her freshman orientation! HOLY CRAP! When did this happen? Since when did I leave Central and now she goes there? I just think it's the strangest thing. Last night she got to cheer for the first time at the jamboree and it was so much fun watching her! I even found myself watching Central play and cheering for them?! And then morning when I dropped her off, I felt so many emotions! I was happy that she's in hs now, I was confused that she's in hs now, I was (I can't believe I'm about to say this) a little bit jealous. Don't get me wrong, I do not, I repeat, I do not miss hs at all! But freshman year was SO much fun. It was the best year I had at Central. I'm just glad that she's going to get to go to a much better Central than I did. Not that anything was wrong with it, because in all honestly I loved Central. I just didn't much care for hs itself nor did I care for pretty much anyone in the school. I did have my favorite teachers of course. I still keep in touch with several of them. Those teachers meant so much to be, because they weren't just my teacher, they were my friend too. I guess I'm just excited for Jordan to experience everything I did while I was at Central. I hope she meets those favorite teachers who she can have relationships with outside of class. I hope she befriends all the principals so she'll never get in trouble. I hope she buys Mrs. Pratt's DECA cookies and I hope she takes Marketing so she gets to bake them! I hope she gets to take drivers ed with Coach Patty (who I'm still in love with and going to marry one day). I hope she gets out of class to do favors for teachers. I hope she has a class with Skip so she can secretly call him Skip behind his back. Gah, I sound like a sappy mom writing this! But seriously, I think I like Central now more than when I was actually a student there.



If you really knew me you would know that I move into my apartment tomorrow and I'm getting very anxious/excited/nervous!

I Can't Think of a Title

Today has been a really good, eventful day so I thought I'd tell ya about it. I babysat this morning for a few hours...and I'm done for the week :) WOOP WOOP! Well, I'm babysitting for Mrs. Pratt Saturday but I'm pumped about that. After I got done babysitting I had these big plans to go to the pool, but it's just too hot, and mom had some errands to run so I tagged along. We took Jordan, my sister, to get her Lettermen's jacket ordered. It's going to be super cute. Obviously. I mean I helped pick it all out lol. Just kidding, but I really did and she kept getting pissed at me. I can't help it. I just want my sista to be the coolest girl in school. After that we went to Lowest to get some new filters. Then we went to a pet store and got some new fishies for our pond! We've had a pond for forever and we used to have lots of big fishies, but as some point a cat ate them....and them our pond messed up real bad. So now that it's back in order we decided to get some new fish. I have a picture I can put on here. The yellow one is honeysuckle. The black and white mixed one is Dooley...yes for Darek Dooley. And the white one with creepy all black eyes is Grim Reaper. He's really scary but he's my favorite, and of course I named him lol. Oh yeah, we also got a half priced drink at sonic. That's a must if you're out and about on such a hot day. Then we came home and started cleaning house because mom thinks it's just absolutely disgusting. I don't really like to clean all that much, but I do love to clean things out and throw things away! That is my favorite thing ever to do. So now I'm just really tired. I got up at like 7:30 this morning to take my sister to cheer practice so my mama wouldn't have to since she's on vaca this week. I know, I know...daughter of the year right here. Well, today has been a really great day. Oh yeah....I move into my apartment in 16 days and I am reeeally excited!

This is my sweet baby Colt. I watch him pretty much everyday of the week. He's my buddy. I love that baby to death. How cute is he!?

If you really knew me you would know that I love raspberry tea from sonic.

LAZY

la·zy/ˈlāzē/Adjective

1. Unwilling to work or use energy

 

Yup, that's me. I am unwilling to use energy. I feel awful saying that, but I have been so lazy this summer. Granted, I do babysit every morning so that might be why I chose to sit and do nothing all day once I get home. But I wish I would do something! Today I got done babysitting around 1. I had these big plans to come home and go straight to the pool. Well, as soon as I got home I realized how hot it was...then I slowly but surely talked myself out of going. I mean, come on! Really? All I would have to do is change into a bathing suit, make a water to drink, drive to the pool, and sit. SIT! I could be lazy there yet I chose to be lazy indoors. Why do I do that? Now that I'm typing it all out I'm getting kind of mad that I didn't go to the pool now. Gaaah. It's such a pretty day and I'm waisting it inside. Maybe I should go for an hour or two....I really could use some sun. I look so pale! And I hate it.

 

 

If you really knew me you would know that I've never been this pale during the summer in my whole 18 years of life. I think I was darker even when I was a baby!

Woops...

So, yeah.. I'm really sorry I haven't posted on here in FOREVER! Most people would say it's because they're having such an exciting summer and they just don't have time. But I haven't had an exciting summer and I've had lots of time. Actually, this has been one of my worst summers to date. It's been extrememly boring. I don't do anything but babysit, which I do enjoy, but it makes me tired. I hardly ever go to the pool. I don't see anybody. And it's just not been very fun, except for the beach with Courtney and her fam. I just wish something exciting would happen. Honestly, at this point I'm jus ready for school to start. I really do miss it. And I'm even more exciting to move in to an apartment next month!!! I'm so pumped. At first I really wasn't all that excited about it, but now I'm ready. I know I'll do much better in school being away from home, and I really enjoyed living in a dorm last year so this will just be an extension of that. Well, I have to go babysit here in a little bit and I was just trying to kill some time. (I always give myself so much time to get ready when all I need is like 15 minutes.) I'll be back soon with a most interesting post hopefully.


If you really knew me you would know that I love the show Big Brother!

The Bachelorette....

...is my guilty pleasure. I hate to miss it. And if I do miss it, I make sure I watch it as soon as I wake up the next morning. But to be completely honest, Ashley is on my nerves already. She needs to chill out and stop being so whiny. And even though I don't like her very much, I have to watch it. I just do. I'm kind of addicted to tv in the summer. It's really bad. But oh well, I have nothing important to do! SUMMER IS SO GREAT!!

ps I'm really in the mood for some crafts. I just thought I'd tell you. I've been on Etsy all day long looking at Christian art and I want to do something soo bad!!!

I HAVE A JOB!

Well.....I wouldn't really call it a job. I'm just babysitting for a family 4 days a week! And let me just say that I am so pumped. One because I really love kids, and there are 3 of them! Two because it's money. These kids are so cute! Camryn is the only girl, she's 6. Rhett is 5. And Colt is almost 11 months old! I start watching them tomorrow and I am so excited. I have prayed and prayed and prayed about finding a babysitting job this summer, and now I finally have one! I'm just really excited to be working with little kids and making some money too.





If you really knew me you would know that I really love to watch movies.

Summer Nights

This week has just been really good, and I haven't posted in a while, so I thought I'd tell you about my week! Let's see here....

Sunday I went to the lake with Brooklyn! I love the lake. I wake boarded and got up (woop woop). But boy were my arms and shoulders sore the next day!
Monday I went to the lake with Courtney and her fam! I seriously love the Horner family. They're pretty much my second family. I spend so much time with them and I love it. Oh, Saturday was her mom's birthday so I went out to eat with them. It was great fun. Monday night I hung out with Abbie, Eric, and Chase. We just drove around, went to Dunkin', and sat by the fire at Erics house.
Tuesday I went to the pool with Abbie, Eric, and Chase. I didn't stay long cause it was hot and I was hungry. Jordan and I went back down later that night to swim.
Wedneday I think I went to the pool again with my mom. And Abbie came down. And Brooklyn and Jeannie and Tim and Camryn came over. It was great fun. But for some reason I got totally fried! We went and got Mexican and then went to the mall for a little while.
Thursday I just layed around all day long. I helped mom around the house a little bit. Then Jordan and I watched Easy A and I took like a three hour nap. Then that night I took Jordan and some of her friends to the pool for a little late night swimming session.
Today, mom had a garage sell. And then we closed her up early and went to the pool for a few hours. We also went to grub at Cheddars....SO GOOD. And I just dropped my sister and her friends off at Alice Bell and now I'm sitting at home posting this blog. I'm just way too cool...actually I just have way too much free time.
Tomorrow me, Abbie, Eric, and Chase are going camping! And on a hike! I'm so pumped.


Sorry this post was totally boring. I just thought I'd fill you in on my life.

If you really knew me you would know that I love sour patch kids!

Praying for...

All the Knoxville kids who left for Frontier this week. Hoping they experience a side of Jesus they've never seen before, and that they leave with a changed heart. Also praying for the leaders who are there will them. I pray they are fully equipped as they are being the hands and feet of Jesus. Frontier changed my heart and I can only hope and pray that it changes these kids hearts too :)

I Just Want...

TO BE AT THE BEACH RIGHT THIS VERY SECOND. It's driving me crazy. I've never craved the beach this badly before, and our family vaca isn't until the first week of July! I just really want to go next month with friends. It's all I think about! Get me to the beach NOW!


Oh yeah, while I'm here, I'm going to go ahead and brag on myself. I made really good grades this semester. All A's and 1 B in Chemistry! And I'm honestly surprised I even got a B because I got a 55 on my final....but hey, that was actually a decent grade. I'm just really proud of myself, because that class kicked my butt!

If you really knew me you would know that I'm getting really fat and I can't stop eating everything I see.

Hiking, Step, and 8th Grade Dance

The past few days have been pretty eventul, fortunately. On Thursday Jane, Jessica, and myself went hiking at House Mountain. It was so great! I always forget how much I love it until I do it again. I just love being outside in the trees on a mountain. It just reminds me of how awesome God is. No, he didn't make 1 or 2 kinds of trees....he made a million types of trees! And plants. And insects. And animals. It's just so cool to think about. Friday morning, Jessica and I went to a step class at Central Baptist Church. I went in thinking it was going to just be a good littl workout, and I MIGHT just break a swear. Holy crap! It was so intense. And it was pretty difficult. But I loved it! I hope we keep going back. Also, yesterday was my sisters 8th grade dance! Aka the most important day in any middle schoolers life. She got out of school early, got her hair done, and mom and I did her makeup. She is seriously gorgeous and she doesn't even know it! I'll have to post some pics. She looks SO old!! I just wanted to brag on her cause she's so cute.


If you really knew me you would know that I love to go grocery shopping with my mom.

1 down, 3 or more to go.

Yes, my title refers to the years of school I have left. I have officially and successfully completed my freshman year of college!!!!!!!!! WHAAAAAAAAT!? Yeah, that's whats going through my head right now. I'm kind of freaking out a little bit, because I honestly don't know where this year went. It's gone. In 3 short months I'm going to be a sophomore in college. That seems so old! And I'll be 19! I don't like the sound of that. This whole aging crap is getting weird. And I'm not really sure how I feel about it. I still feel like I'm 12. I call my mom about everything, I love home, I go every where with my mom, she does my laundry, she makes me food....so really I guess I haven't grown up at all. I'm 18....but not really. I took my last final this morning and I hope I did good. It wasn't awful, so that's a plus. I just hope I can get a C in Chemisry. That's all I want. If I get a C- and have to take it again I will cry like a baby all summer long. I'll still cry if I get a C, but at least I won't have to take it again. That class was ridiculous. I get frustrated talking about it so I'm going to stop. Well, my summer has officially began. Summer 2011.....gonna be heaven.

If you really knew me you would know that I want to learn to play golf.

Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to the best, greatest, coolest, awesomest, neatest, radest, sweetest (sometimes) mama in the whole world! Even though we fought like all day today....imagine that. She's still the best though. Love you, mama bear!

1081 Paxton Drive

I officially reside back in my location of 1081 Paxton Drive...aka...Mom's crib. It's bittersweet, really it is. I LOVE home. I'm pretty much obsessed with it. But I already miss being on campus. On campus I had Jane and friends and food and stuff to do whenever I wanted. At home, I have no friends. Mom works all day. Sister is at school. Well, I take that back. I do have the dogs. But they're already on my nerves. Basically, I just sit all day and watch tv. Yesterday I cleaned my room and vaccumed the upstairs for mom, but that took all of about 2 hours. So I was bored by 12. I need to go on a walk or tan or something! But I'm just too lazy to even get up. I think I'm just mourning the loss of my dorm room. I hope the next 2 girls that reside in Humes Hall room 520 AB enjoy it as much as Jane and I did. It was a great room. I'll miss it forever and always. Well, happy Cinco de Mayo everyone. I want Monterrey right now!

If you really knew me you would know that I eat at Monterrey at least once a week.

Cheerleading

Yes, I'm done with cheerleading for the rest of my life; however, cheerleading is definitely apart of my life for the long run. Yesterday my sister had tryouts for high school at Central and my best friend, Courtney had her last round of tryouts at UT! Needless to say, it was a big day yesterday. I was a nervous wreck. The night before I had worked with my sister all night on her cheer chant and dance just making sure she had it perfect. Yesterday morning we got up really early and got her ready and went over everything one more time! She had to be at school by 8:45 and then tryouts started at 9. I was texting her all morning trying to see if anybody cried after their tryout or if anybody said they messed up. Haha, I wanted the scoop! Jordans group was about to go so mom and I headed to the school around 11. Well, they were done with everybody by then but then like an hour and a half later they had call backs....and my sister got called back. I was seriously peeing on myself. Actually, I was crying. I was so nervous for her. I KNOW she is good. But I also know that Central has a history of not having fair cheerleading tryouts....so that's what I was nervous for. Long story short, my cute little sister is now a high school cheerleader! And I couldn't be more proud of her. She worked her butt off and she deserved that spot. I can't wait to teach her all the chants and drum chants! She's going to be the best one :) As for Court, last night around 12:30 I got a text from her saying I'm A UT CHEERLEADER! I am soooooo proud of her. Like seriously, she has worked her butt off these last few months. She would tumble everyday for like 3 hours. That's some serious dedication. I am so proud of both of them. I can't wait to watch Court cheering at all the football and basketball games! I'll be pointing and screaming...THAT'S MY BEST FRIEND!!!!!!!! Love you both, Jordy and Court! Y'all rock!

Let Us Rejoice And Be Glad In It.

I can't believe it's here, it being the last week of school. The last week of my first year of college. Honestly, I'm a little but upset about it. This was, hands down, the best, most amazing, incredible year of my life. I've never been in a better place. And I've never been happier. I went from living the worst year of my life to the best year of my life. I'm going to miss this place. I mean, I'm acting like I'm moving across the country or something, which I'm not. I'm just going to miss living in my box. I'm going to miss having a roommate. I'm going to miss Humes Hall. (good ole Humes sweet Humes) I'm going to miss waking up 30 minutes before class starts. I'm going to miss getting lunch and dinner with all my friends. I'm going to miss just being on campus all day every day. I've grown to love this place to much, and yes, I'll be back next year. But I'm going to have to drive back here every single day. And I'm not going to get to wake up 30 minutes before class starts. It just stinks. I'm actually starting to get a little bit emotional about it. The other day I was  walking down the stairs to pick up Jess at the basement door and I got really sad. Like I wanted to cry like a baby. Dang, this really sucks. I'm going to miss being with Jess and Jane for all my meals. And being in a box with Jane all day long. I can't talk about this anymore...it's too hard.

Anyways, life's been great. School's been good. Powell's been awesome. My small group is the bomb. And I seriously have the greatest friends ever. And now it's about to be summer and I'm going to miss all my friends who aren't from here! Gosh, this is really sad too. Everything is so sad because everything is about to change again. I feel like I just started school! Where the heck is time going!?!?!? Last night we had our last small group for the year, and of course it was great fun. I just really love spending time with those girls. They bring out the best in me.

This is way random, but my sister has high school cheer tryouts Saturday and my best bud Courtney has UT cheer tryouts starting Friday. So I'm like fretting a little bit for both of them. I mean, I would never tell either of them that, but I am going to be a nervous wreck this weekend! I mean geeez! Two important people in my life are about to do something big! Obviously I want my sis to make cheerleading at Central just because she's good as crap, and I cheered, and I just want her to :) And duh I want Court to make cheerleading at UT! I mean how freakin' awesome would that be! Yeah, that's my best friend running through the T! Wwaaaaaaaahhhh! SO cool. She's going to make it. Love them both, so keep them in your prayers.

This week is our last YL club for the year, and it's senior club so I'm really excited to see how they do. I can't believe I've already been a leader for like 5 weeks now! That's so crazy. Time is seriously speeding by like a NASCAR race car driver.

Hahah, yes I'm becoming obsessed with NASCAR. Like, for instance, I'm wearing my neon yellow Bristol shirt right now as we speak. Perhaps I should post a picture. I think that'd be appropriate. Well anyways, theres an allstar race coming up in Charlotte and I've GOT to go! And I'm really pumped about it. I will seriously go by myself if I have to! I mean, it's only 20 bucks! Who could pass that up!?

Really sorry for rambling, I'll wrap it up soon. But today in my Jesus calling the verse were 2 Corinthians 4:16-18. I just thought they were really great, especially 17. Here it is:

"For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all."

Sometimes I let the smallest, dumbest things tick me off and put me in a terrible mood, which then leads me to have an attitude and then I get in a fight with my mom or something...it's just a never ending cycle.  I wish I would just take those obstacles for what they are and realize they're only making me a better, stronger, more christ-like person.

If you really knew me you would know that I still have $160 dining dollars left that I have to spend by this week.

This Post is for Chelsea Holland

Chelsea wanted me to post about how my lack of shower taking. So here it is: I don't like to shower. I just don't. Never really have. I don't mind being a little dirty. It doesn't bother me one bit. So because of this, I don't shower very often. It works out for the best, seriously. Most people think it's gross, but I don't really care. That's just what makes me me. So that was for you, Chels. I hope you enjoyed it.

So tonight is Quest graduation.....waaaaaaaah! I'm pretty pumped. We officially graduate from Quest and are now YoungLife leaders to lost high school students. So great. I think we like really walk across something wearing our school colors and our team cheers for us! So great. And our "diploma" is a key to the YoungLife house! I'm excited about tonight. I have to go home to get some of pals some Central shirts so they can wear them tonight.

This morning I had a Chemistry test, and to be totally honest...it wasn't THAT bad. It could have been extremely fair and doable had I actually studied besides this morning an hour before. But hey, that's just how I roll. I can't help that I'm terrible at studying, and when I do study it's last minute. I'm going to do better next year though. I'll have to!

Just wanted to give a quick little shout out to Maleana. She's on my heart and I just pray that she has a safe trip to GA. Love you, Mel.

I'm about to go to lunch at Powell! For the first time everrrrrr! Way pumped. And a little bit nervous too.

If you really knew me you would know that I brush my teeth alot.

Homemade Apples

Homemade Apples is actually the font I used for the blog title, and tell me it ain't cute! I just went crazy on changing the whole look of my blog, and I must say, I'm pretty pleased with the changes I've made. Today was a really good day, and you normally won't hear me saying that on a Wednesday. I woke up this morning and watched Biggest Loser that I missed last night. I went to all my class, and Chem lab wasn't even that bad! AND it was the last one for this semester! Can I get a hallelujah!? Let me just say that I have loved every moment that I have gotten to spend with Maelena, Mary, and Chelsea. Seriously, I just met those girls this year and they already mean so much to me. I love something new about each of them everyday. I've loved having small group with Maelena and just getting to know her sweet, loving heart. She is honestly one of the most genuine, selfless people I have ever met, and I'm so thankful to have her in my life. She's taught me to be a more loving person, and I'm glad to have her friendship. She loves Jesus so much and you can tell just my hearing her talk. She literally is an angel. Mary is my giggle buddy and jokester. We laugh about anything and everything, and we make each other laugh over the dumbest things. She has such a good heart and she has loved me so well this past semester. All the time I think about how I hope I get to see her this summer since she isn't from here. Mary Mary quite contrary is what I like to call her. She is so sweet natured and just never ceases to put a smile on my face. Mary is a child of God. I'm thankful that she reached out to me with open arms and pursued a friendship with me. Chelsea is so comforting and full of compliments. She always has something positive to say, and she always lifts me up with encouraging words. She always makes me feel good about myself. Chelsea has such an amazing heart for Jesus and every time I'm with her I see Jesus. She never has a bad thing to say about anymore, she's so uplifting, and she's just so full of life and good spirits even when the times are hard. I have made many more friends and of course Jane and Jess, but I just felt like I needed to talk about these 3 girls. They each bring something different to the table, and I love them each for their own unique reasons. They are all my sisters in Christ, and I'm just really glad I met them all. I guess they've just all been on my heart lately, and I mean I do spend 4 days a weeks with them in Chemistry, so they're pretty special. LOVE YOU, GIRLS!


If you really knew me you would know that I have at least 987235 different laughs.

I am officially a Powell Panther! Roaaaaaaaaar

Yes, it happened. I am officially a YoungLife leader at Powell High School! I seriously still don't believe this happened. I was afraid I was going to wake up this morning and realize it wasn't true at all. I've already told the story about a billion times, so I can wait to tell it again for the blog. It's pretty much the greatest story ever to be told. So here goes nothin'...

Yesterday was Wednesday. I typically hate Wednesday's for the simple fact that I have chem lab from 3:30-6:30. Torture. Well yesterday was going good. I just tried really hard all day not to think about what was going to happen that night. I prayed a lot and I just kept telling Jesus I trust you I trust you I trust you. Because I did. I trusted that he would put me at the school he best saw fit for me. I talked to Jesus all through my classes, while I was walking to classes, while I was eating. No joke, all day long. Right before lab was about to start I started to get extremely anxious. My heart was getting giddy and I just had to keep telling asking that Jesus calm my heart and my nerves and my excitement so I could get through lab. And He did. Mel and I did some serious work and got done with our lab at like 5:30! (ps, she is the sweetest, most angelic friend I've ever had, and I love her a lot.) Okay so we got done with lab and we went and got my car and I took Mel, Cayce, Kim, and myself to Steph's house for dinner. Once we all got to Steph's the other girls from my small group that were there but weren't getting placed took our phones and all our stuff. It was scary. But then they pampered us like princesses. They made us sit down the whole time and they got us whatever they wanted and they made us Spaghetti with salad and garlic bread. Dinner was so great and full of sweet conversation. After dinner Steph asked if we wanted to have dessert at the table or in the living room, so we opted for the living room and once again, they made us sit down and they served us. They each asked us what kind of ice cream we wanted, and of course I wanted a little bit of chocolate and vanilla. Steph made cookies and put them in the bottom of our bowl with ice cream on top and it was so yummy. Well, as I was eating my ice cream I noticed that the bottom of my bowl said PHS on the bottom. At first I was just confused. I was like I wonder why Steph has a Powell bowl, but I didn't really think much of it considering people just acquire things from friends that went to other schools all the time. Well as I scraped away more of my ice cream I realized that the bottom of my bowl said P.H.S Panthers on the bottom.....and that was it!!!!!! That was school Jesus had placed me at! Once I realized I was going to be a leader at Powell I just lost it. I was so exciting and happy and just full of joy! The three other girls that were also getting placed started freaking out because they didn't understand why I just randomly started crying. But the other girls who filled the bowls new what was going on, they still didn't know where we were though. So once the girls figured out is was in the ice cream bowls they freaked out and ran to the sink to get rid of their ice cream! It was such a special time. My friend Morgan is at Hardin Valley, my friend kim is at West, and my friend Cayce is at Central!!! Once we all celebrated our schools, Steph brough us together and told us each exactly why we were placed at our school. It was so great to hear why I am at Powell High School. In my interview I talked alot about just being so broken in hs, but I had to be tough, and hard, and pretend like I had it all together. I had the hardest shell on and I wasn't about to let anybody break it down. According to Steph, a lot of Powell girls are the very same way. They put on this front, but on the inside they are very broken. I was meant to be at Powell High School. And now I can see how more than ever! After Steph told us why we were each where we are, we all sat in a circle and the rest of the girls in our small group prayed over the four of us. It was just a really special night. The 9 other girls in our small group that didn't decide to get placed were still there for a us all night, and I think that is what made the night so special. They didn't have to come at all, but they wanted to be there for us and watch us through a special time in our lives. This is a little off topic, but those girls mean the world to me. They made this past year so much more enjoyable, and I will forever cherish the moments and conversations and laughter we shared. I'm so glad Steph is going to continue our small group next year! I would not know what to do without it and her! After we all prayed we packed up and went to the YoungLife house to meet our team leaders and the new quest people that are also on our team! Once everyone got to the YL house, Tim prayed over all of us and we went with our team leader to do something fun for the night. So then I went out with my new team members and two people who are already on the team, Devin and Thomas, made us do a little scavenger hunt! It was super great, and since I practically live in Powell I knew where everything was. I could ramble on so much more about last night, but I'll save you from the boredom. Basically, last night was magically. Seriously. I have never been so happy in my whole life. And tonight I get to go to my first YL club as a leader!!!!!!!! Except I have a stupid class at 6:30, that I am not looking forward to. Can't wait to tell you about tonight. And I can't wait to hear about how all my friends first club's went! This is almost too exciting. I have honestly never been happier in my whole life. This whole year has been the best year ever! Sorry I'm rambling.  JESUS SAVES!

If you really knew me you would know that I am obsessed with cinnapies from papa johns. (have I said that already?)

Are You a Consumer?

First I want to start off my saying that this weekend and today were super great. I love the weekends, and I'm so glad that Mondays are my easiest day, because if they weren't I'd probably want to kill myself a lot. I've started staying at home on Sunday nights and coming to campus around 10 on Monday morning. I love it! I get to sleep in my moms bed, wake up when I feel like it, and take my time. This also makes me want to live at home more and more next year. I am 100% okay with it. I'm sure there will be days when I get in a fight with my mom or sister and I'll regret ever saying this, but for the most part I think I will really enjoy it. Today we had small group, which is always so great. This week Steph had us draw our heart and write or draw inside it whatever we were feeling, or whatever was on our heart, or how our heart felt. It's so great to be able to see how everyone else is doing and what is going on in their heart. We each went around and talked about why we wrote or drew what we did. I drew a lot on my heart that I won't go into detail about, but one thing in particular was that I wrote "future" on my heart. I said that typically I would be stressed, anxious, confused, and impatient with the future and not knowing what to come. But for the first time ever in my whole entire life, I am thrilled with the fact that I am actually looking forward to the future not knowing what is to come. I explained it like this..I said that normally it's like I'm on a high thrill roller coaster and I have my eyes closed trying to predict what's coming next, but now I'm just riding a slow, calm train to wherever it takes me, and I'm enjoying it! I have finally come to terms with the fact that I don't plan my future, so why obsess over it. All of this leads me to talk about Crossroads tonight. It was so awesome! It was probably the best one I've ever been too. This semester the talks have all been about how to follow Jesus more. Tonight Greg talked about 3 directions God calls us to. 1. Holiness. The pursuit of Holiness is fundamental to the Christian walk. Greg said this exactly, "If you don't feel the Holy Spirit in you then you are not a Christian." There should be something in you that wants to please God, that something is the Holy Spirit. The second direction God calls us to is A love for God's people. Yeah, we've all read in the bible that we are suppose to love everyone, which is true, but we really need to love our church, our brothers and sisters in Christ. This is where a lot of people fall short. People bash the church and the people of the church. This is not loving God's people. We are to first love those who are of the household of family: the church. The third thing is Learning Responsibility, and this really hit home. Greg said this so many times...DO NOT have a consumer mentality. Which is what a lot of us tend to do? It's easy to go to church and listen to the sermon, or go to a small group and be fed from the other members, but we have to share what we are being fed. Tim said this a young life a few weeks ago, we have to be spiritually FIT not FAT. Yeah, it's great to be fed at church and small group, but once you've eaten, you have to go work out. Share the gospel with others! That's what we are called to do! Labor for the Kingdom of Christ around you! Greg then talked about how idleness is the number one thing that leads to sin. Which is so true. So basically, we need to use our time wisely....which I do not know how to do. I love being idle and being lazy. But that's doing nothing for me or Jesus. So again Greg said it, Stop having a consumer mentality! STOP! This is something that I will continue to pray about. I know that is a few short days I will be beginning my journey to share my ministry with lost high school kids. I will be doing what Jesus has called me to do. Speaking of which....I get placed WEDNESDAY! This Wednesday! And I am seriously so pumped. I'm going to want to kill myself the whole time in Chem lab so I can hurry and leave and get to Steph's! I will definitely post soon after I find out! 

If you really knew me you would know that I love taking naps! I could pretty much fall asleep on command. 

I write with good news!

Okay so, yesterday I found out that we find out where we will be getting placed NEXT WEDNESDAY!! I was thinking it was so much further away from now, but I am so glad that it's next week! I seriously couldn't be more pumped! Last night at Quest there was a leader panel. They had 6 leaders up front and we got to write and and asked them questions about leading and everything that comes with it. It's always so good to hear from other people how their ministry looks, how they pursue girls, how much money they spend....the whole 9 yards. It just made me that much more pumped for next week. I can't wait to see a year from now and how my ministry has played out, and how I will be pursuing girls. It's just a really cool thing. I pray every day for the the staffers and quest leaders that will be placing all of us this Saturday. It's a HUGE deal, but I know that Jesus will be in the YL house with everyone on Saturday.

I have been so anxious about this whole leading stuff, so I found this verse and I just have to keep reminding myself of it...

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.


Philippians 4:6-7




This is way random, and I meant to say something when I posted Tuesday, but I'm kind of sad that my boy Bruce is gone. It's tragic. I feel like he died or something. Good thing he didn't, though!


If you really knew me you would know that I am the worst studier ever! Seriously though, I should be studying for a Stat test that I have tonight, but nope.

Long time no see....

Dang, it's almost been a month since I've posted anything on here. I do apologize. I would say I've been super busy and just haven't had time, but then I'd be lying. I have all the time in the world. For instance, right now I am sitting in front of Ayers Hall on a bench just taking in this beautiful morning, and posting on my blog of course. I feel like I have A LOT to catch up on. But I won't start with a month ago. Let's see, I'll start with my YL interview, because that was probably what I was talking the most about. Well, I guess it was 2 weeks ago. Steph texted me Wednesday during lab and said my interview would probably be after Quest...which is on Wednesday. So I kind of went into panic mode for a little bit. I was trying to think of questions they would ask me so I would already know the answer. I was anxious and excited and nervous and scared and pumped all at the same time. So I went to Quest and tried not to think about it the whole time. I prayed about it a lot while we were singing. And then......Quest was over and Steph took me upstairs. I was definitely nervous by this point, but it was a good nervous. I wasn't like about to throw up or anything. I was ready to do it! So Steph and Lindsay took me into this office-like room with a couch and chairs and the interview began. It was THE GREATEST thing I have ever done in my whole life. I could sit here and tell you every question she asked me and my answer to it, but there's no need for that. Basically, I've never felt so good about something in my whole entire life. I knew Jesus was in that interview with me. Sometimes I had answers and I had no idea where they came from. Jesus spoke through me, and I felt so good after that I got to share about my story and where I stand with Jesus. Obviously, Steph knows pretty much everything about me, so really it was just a conversation with my and Lindsay. Which I absolutely loved! Lindsay and I know each other, but not as well as Steph and I. I spend a week with Lindsay and other girls from Quest back in January when we did work crew. That was probably one of the greatest weeks of my life. Lindsay is seriously one of the most christ-like people I've ever met. Not only does she love Jesus with her whole entire entire, but she is just so knowledgable about the everything as well. She is such a great leader, and I was so glad that she did my interview. It was one of the best days I've ever had. So now, I officially know that I am going to be a YoungLife leaderl!!!!!! I am so pumped. I think about it every day. I don't think we find out what school we are going to be placed at for another week or so. But I can't wait! I will definitely keep you posted on that :)

So last week was spring break. Which was very much needed! It was probably one of the best spring breaks I've ever had. Simply because I didn't just sit at home all day everyday. Trust me, I do love just sitting and watching tv, but it was nice to get out and do stuff with friends! Saturday I went to Nashville with Morgan, a girl in my small group. We just went for the day. Ate some Cheesecake Factory, shopped, and met her from at the airport who had been gone for 6 months! It was great fun and we had some good conversation. Then Monday several girls from my small group went to Morgan's house for dinner and we watched the Bachelor finale, which I'm not too pleased with. I think Emily is a fake. But that's just my opinion and a whole other blog post. I didn't do much of anything on Tuesday or Wednesday. Went to Big Ed's for pizza one night, which was way good. Then on Thursday, my mom and sister and myself went to Atlanta for a few days. We did a bunch of eating and shopping, and then on Saturday we went to Six Flags. I've decided that I don't like Six Flags at all anymore. Anyways, went  headed home Saturday night, and we got home around midnight. Early Sunday morning Chase, Jess, Jane, and myself headed to Bristol for the Nascar race! It was seriously one of the greatest experiences of my life! I had way too much fun! And I will definitely go back. I could seriously talk about the race for hours. It was so great and so hilarious. And then Monday....I came back to school. Which is a major bummer. Of course, I have like 2 tests and a critique due this week. So it's kind of a busy week, but I'm hoping it will go by fast. I'm ready for the weekend already. I just really love being at home...which brings me to another topic. Jess and Jess and I have been looking at apartments and places to live next year. I really want to live on my own, but at the same time I just really want to live at home. I love home!  I just love being at my house. I'm definitely a home body. I just know that if I live at home that it will be extremely hard for my to concentrate on school work. I just think living at home will be the easiest option and I'll be saving money. Who knows that will happen though.

Well, I've talked a lot. And I could probably say a lot more, but I'm just going to take in the outdoors before class starts.
If you really knew me you would know that I wake up really easy in the mornings. I would definitely consider it a quality of mine.

Big Week

This week is a big week. For starters I have a huge Chemistry test Friday. So basically any week is considered big when there's a Chemistry quiz or test involved. These suckers are so dang HARD! And to make it even better, I don't know how to study for them. I don't know how to study at all actually! On top of the Chemistry test I have to turn in my YoungLife application this Friday. This is such a big deal for me. I can't and won't just be able to write something down and turn it it. I started it Sunday and I finally finished answering all the questions Tuesday. I just really like to think about each question and write everything my heart wants me to say. So now that I've answered everything I really need to go back and reread everything I've written and make sure it's all in tip top shape. Another thing that goes along with the application is a recommendation. The unfortunate part about the recommendation is that everyone else gets to have their YoungLife leaders do it. But because my YoungLife leader and another YoungLife leader that I was also close with are both Quest leaders, they can't write the rec. for me. It's been very overwhelming. I haven't been super involved with the church my whole life. It's kind of been and off and on type thing, and right now I'm trying to decided which church is right for me so that I can belong to a church family. So if I can't use a pastor or youth minister, or family and friends, I was getting pretty hopeless. But last night Mrs. Pratt randomly came into my head while I was in the library. Mrs. Pratt is a marketing teacher at Central, and although I only ended up taking on of her classes, I feel like she knows me very well. I competed at DECA competitions for two years, went to State with her twice, and went to New York with her. I feel like she knows how I act in an environment besides school. She's seen me under stress, but she's also seen my everyday life style too. So last night I emailed her at midnight and asked her about my YL rec. Before I went to bed last night I just prayed and prayed and prayed that if she was meant to write it then she would, and if she wasn't, she wouldn't. So this morning I got up and checked my email and Mrs. Pratt said that she would LOVE to write a rec for me! I read it a good five times and then I seriously just cried. It made me so happy! Obviously Jesus had the idea of Mrs. Pratt, which is why He put her in my head so late last night. He knew I was concerned with the situation. And last night after praying about it, He answered. I love when I am can become still enough to actually see Jesus working in my life. Being still is another thing I've prayed about all week. I just have a racing mind all day everyday and it's so hard for me to be still and listen to what scripture is saying and what Jesus is saying. It's a hard task, but I've got to learn how to do it!

Wow, sorry for rambling..but one more thing! I'm going to visit Halls YL club tonight and I am SOOOO excited! I really love this whole visiting clubs thing. It's so much fun to be back in a high school YL and watch how the kids interact. I mean I was there just a year ago and it's already so crazy how much differently I acted then compared to now. I'm really looking forward to leading these lost and broken high school kids. I'm just ready to love on them already and I don't even know them! I don't even know what school I'll be at!

Well, it is such an ugly day outside and I already skipped one class this morning, so I should probably make it to my next class.

If you really knew me you would know that when I eat peanut butter like it's candy.

Am I Ready For Battle?

Am I totally crazy and stupid for wanting to be a YoungLife leader? Probably so. Those were Tim's exact words Wednesday night at Quest. His talk was based around Judges chapter 6 & 7. It's about this big battle that was going on between Gideon and the Midianites. There were 32,000 men ready to battle, but Jesus said there were too many and he basically said if you are the slightest bit afraid you need to leave. So 22,000 men left, leaving 10,000. But Jesus still thought there were too many men. Gideon was told to take the men to the water see how they drank it. If they cupped the water and drank it like a dog, they were to stay. If they kneeled, they were to go. Only 300 men lapped the water out of their hands. So basicallyI should be asking myself, Jesus are you me into this battle. The battle being leading YL. Because according to Tim, leading is like a real life battle. Only 300 are CALLED to battle, because there are A LOT of sacrifices that go along with it. Time, money, time, grades, time, sleep, time, time, time. But after hearing such an honest, intimidating talk, I can say, wholeheartedly, that I am suppose to go into battle. Now I've just got to get geared up, and before I know it, the time will be here.

Thursday night I went to visit Fulton's club. It was a lot different than I expected it to be. I thought it would be much bigger and much more crazy and wild. That's the kind of atmosphere I'm looking for. But don't get me wrong, I have so much fun. I had a really great time getting to know the team after. This week I'll hopefully be visiting West and next week Carter. Now I need to be working on my application and getting my recommendation out. This is all happening SO fast.

As for right now, I am about to go get ready and go to dinner and a movie with some gal pals of mine for Chelsea's birthday!


If you really knew me you would know that I love to be tan.

High 64

Yes, that was the high for the day. And let me just tell you, it felt so great! I am so happy when it's warm. I catch myself just walking to class with a huge, cheesy grin on my face. I'm lovin' all this vitamin D I'm getting.

For today to be a Wednesday it was a really awesome day. I took a History of Rock test that wasn't too awful, I watched a 40 minute video in English, and lab only took an hour and a half! If that doesn't qualify as a great day then I'm not real sure what does.

This week I have been SO flustered/overwhelmed about visiting clubs. I called Fulton this past weekend and they said it was full so Jane called West and they played phone tag all day.  Last night I just prayed about it. I knew Jesus would let happen what's suppose to happen. If I was suppose to visit somewhere, he'd let me visit. If I wasn't, I wasn't. And then....during lab Jane texted me and said the Fulton leader called her back and said we could go! Music to my ears! Seriously. And obviously Jesus wants me to visit there since I was told it was full and then told we could come. I am so pumped about visiting Fulton. I get butterflies when I think about. I get that same feeling with Carter too. So I really hope one of these hits the spot for me. Today's Jesus Calling said Thank Me for the conditions that are requiring you to be still. I think...actually I know that I tend to fight the quietness sometimes. But the quietness pays on in the end. And I always realize that after.

Monday night after small group I went to Steph's house to watch the Bachelor, and while I was there I asked her about YL and leading, and how we find out. All that cool stuff. Like I'm already stoked out of my mind about all this, but talking about it made me so much more excited! I know from the bottom of my heart that I am suppose to be a young life leader. Sometimes I've caught myself thinking about how being a nursing major and leading will be hard, but I honestly said this at least 3 times...Oh well I'll just change my major because I will lead lost hs kids. That seriously has ran through my mind so many times. Leading isn't just sometime I plan to do in my spare time when I get bored. It's so much more serious than that. I can't believe time is moving along so quickly. We get applications TONIGHT at Quest! I can't wait to sit outside and let Jesus do all the writing through me. I am in such a great mood. Courtney and I are going to Coppa Cella for $5 burga tonight before quest :) I am super hungry.


If you really knew me you would know that I broke my pinky.

Valentine's Eve.

I don't have a title for this post yet, so hopefully I'll come up with something before the end. 

Well, it's Sunday night. That means tomorrow is Monday. Here comes a new week. I think I'm ready for it. I can do this. This weekend was really good. Friday I went to the CHS game because it was senior night. I took the senior cheerleaders a cupcake from The Cupcakery and watched my bobcat boys run all over Fulton. It was an awesome game. I don't miss cheering at all, but if somebody had handed me a uniform and said do you want to cheer? I would have in a heartbeat. That game was so great, and I miss cheering for those boys. I miss them all so much! Zeek, Darnell, Sabo, Dre, and Linny. They were my pals. Oh, Steph Bales joined me at the game. I was glad she came with me. After the game we went to sonic, grabbed some real food, and then met Court Sport at Marble Slab for some ice cream and chat. Steph and I had some really great conversation. I honestly don't know who I'd be today if it weren't for her being there for me all throughout high school. We talked about leading yl and what I was most excited about and was I was most nervous/scared about. I guess I'm most nervous about just walking in a high school and saying hey I'm Taylor I love Jesus and you should too. I mean obviously that's not how it works. It's going to take some time, and I'm more than ready and willing. I know Jesus with me with me every single time. I'm most excited about just being that person that Steph was for me all through high school. I want some girl or girls to KNOW that they can talk to me about anything and they can tell me anything and I will ALWAYS love them no matter no. Gosh I get so pumped just talking about it. After our ice cream date I went to Courtney's house for a while. I didn't plan on staying so late, but we were just having a too much fun. I seriously love her fam and friends. I just fit right in like I've know them all my phone life. It's so great. Saturday, my mom and I took my sister and her friend to see Never Say Never 3d. (they're too cool) Mom and I just walked around the mall looking for something to do. We came home and Jane and I watched the UT basketball game and I made us these really awesome sandwiches. Just call me Rachel Ray. Actually, don't. I can't cook at all. But they are super delicious. And this morning I went to church with Eric and Abs. We got some lunch. Then I went home and crashed for like 3 hours. I probably wont sleep tonight. Not looking forward to it. Mom took Jordan and I too Olive Garden for dinner and then I came back here to the box. So I've just been chillin'. Ya know, making my Valentines for my small group tomorrow night. Also I started my application for Summer Staff. I'm really interested in working at a camp out west, so I'm hoping for Lost Canyon in Arizona or Crooked Creek or Trail West in Colorado. Oh yeah! Big news. I think I'll be visiting Fulton YL this week, so I am SOO pumped about that! I'll definitely have to tell y'all how it goes! 

Well, I just rambled and still don't have a title...

If you really knew me you would know that I am perfectly fine not having a Valentine. My mom is the best Valentine ever. Probably way better than any boy. 

PISSED. okay not really.

I just had the LOOOOOONGEST post ever......and I lost it. I'm kind of mad. But oh well. I'm not even about to write it again.

Houston, we have a problem...

Okay so....about an hour ago I realized that there are 4 weeks until Spring Break. YAHHHHOOOOOO!!!!!  But that also means that Spring Break I have to have visited 3 YoungLife clubs and had my interview. This kind of scared me a little bit. Well, not scared me. But startled me. I didn't realize how soon it was all happening. I'm actually really really excited about all this. I'm just so confused. I don't know which schools to visit. I have about 5 in my head, but who knows. Basically I just need to pray pray pray pray pray about this. So that's just what I'll do.

Full Bellies and Heavy Eyelids

It is Superbowl Sunday. That's all....

Just kidding. Today has been a really great day. I went to church at Fellowship this morning. The sermon was really great. This guy Paul from Boston spoke to us about becoming a world neighborhood. He spent a lot of time time about John 3:16. God LOVED the WORLD. So we should too. We say we don't love Islams or Muslims. Why not? We don't have to love their practice, but we do have to love them as people. The ONLY reason we are able to love at all is because God loved us first! That's just such a cool thing to me. We love because He loved us first. We're suppose to love everyone. No matter one. Our application for the week was to go into our closet and look at the countries who made our clothes, and then to pray for them. Pray for the country and pray for the hands that made our clothes. We typically spend the majority of our prayers on the people around us most, like friends and family. But shouldn't we also be praying for the person that person is Haiti who doesn't have food or water or a place to live? Shouldn't we be praying for the people of Egypt? DUH! Of course we should. But we don't. So I hope to encourage everyone else to pray for the maker of your clothes as well. These prayers can go a long way.

After church I just layed around until I came back to campus. Jane, Jess, and I are watching the game right now as we speak. We ordered some pizza and now I feel really sick. And I am so ready for bed. It's only 9:23....


If you really knew me you would know that I really enjoy doing nothing on my weekends.
If you really knew me you would know that I have a really big problem with shopping online.

Should Be Writing A Paper

Goodness gracious! It's been a while since I've posted. I do apologize about that. Hope all is well. Just wanted to share that I should totally be writing a paper right now...because it's due Friday...but I'm doing this instead. Oh and to make it even better, I haven't even talked this paper. I'm such a procrastinator. But I've come to the conclusion and accepted the fact that that is just how I work. I'm not the type of person who can study an hour everyday a week until the test, or write a little bit everyday until it's finished. NO! I study the day of and I write the day before. That my friends is how I roll. And don't get me wrong, I'm not meaning to boast or seem proud of it, but I honestly cannot help it. I tried to start my paper Monday and I seriously just sat at my computer for an hour and stared. No good. So I'll probably work on it a little bit tonight, but mostly do all of it tomorrow. I'm just that way. My good friend Jessica is the total opposite. She works on a paper for like 3 weeks, and studies her brains our for tests. Sometime I wish I could be as disciplined as her, but I just can't do it.

Well, I'll catch you up on me week. This week has actually been pretty good. Nothing big going on besides this paper, that I'm practically ignoring. Today I had lab, which is pretty much torture. But I realized that I can't complain about it the whole time or it really will be awful. So I tried to make the best of it and I tried to have fun. It actually did work a little bit. After lab I went to Copper Cellar with some friends for $5 burgers! Yes I said it. 5 BUCKS! So good. After we ate we went to Quest, which, I must say is the highlight of my week. It just keeps getting better and better. Tonight we talked about Camp. And it was so cool to hear about just HOW intentional everything about camp is! The meals, the long walks, the program, the rides....everything! I am so pumped about being a YoungLife leader. Tonight we had 3 spotlights from Karns, Center (my alma mater!), and Farragut. It's so cool to be able to hear about the school, and how younglife looks at the school, and how younglife club looks at the school. I'm getting more and more excited with every school I hear about. Tomorrow night I think Jane and I are going to go to All West, which is when ALL the west side schools come together for one big club. I was being extremely close-minded to west side schools, and I know I don't need to be. Jesus may want me there, so I'm going to check it out.

I do apologize for rambling. I really have nothing super important to say. I just wanted to post and say what was up. I really should get to this paper. I'll be taking prayers :)


If you really knew me you would know that I brush my teeth a lot.

Sweet Saturday

Today was so great. SO great. And it's 9:20 and I am so stinkin' tired. Well, I'm just going to give the low down of my day...

Mom woke me up at 10:30. We went to the tanning bed. Came home, got ready, went to Plato's Closet. We got some money back for some clothes we took. We went to West Town. I took my cracked Iphone to the Apple store and I got a new phone....FOR FREE!!! Yes, best news of the day. We went into Forever 21 and I saw Victoria Lambert and Maddie Davis! I miss seeing their sweet faces. And it was great catching up. We left the mall, picked up my sister, went to Wasabi's (total yum). After we left Wasabi's we went to the Cupcakery (even more yum). Then we came home. Mom and I watched Saw 7. And now we're just laying around. I think I'm ready for bed. Can't wait for church in the morning because Jane, Jess, and myself are going to try a new church. I'll let you know how it goes.

Oh yeah I almost forget..I had so much fun babysitting last night. The girls' names were Maddy and Claire! They were so stinkin' cute. We had a lot of fun. Needless to say, I was very tired when I got home. We played with A LOT of toys. I hope I can babysit them again, though!


If you really knew me you would know that I love scary movies.

Seriously, TGIF

It's finally Friday! This week has been long, that's for sure. But it was a good week. Only 1 quiz, so nothing too big. I only have one more class left today before this girl goes home! Tonight I'm babysitting and I am so pumped! I haven't stopped thinking about it since Wednesday.

Today I was on Twitter and someone had retweeted a verse one of their friends tweeted. It was such an awesome verse.


In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.
Proverbs 16:9

Gosh, that's some good stuff right there. And it applies to me perfectly right now. I'm so overwhelmed about what I'm suppose to be doing with my life, and I'm trying to plan my own course. But of course, Jesus is really the one who is going to tell me when and where to go and what to do. It's something that's been heavy on my heart lately, and I'm just continuing to pray about it.

This is totally random, but lately I've been obsessed with the song "A Kiss from a Rose" by Seal. haha, I'm not even kidding. I sing it constantly and watch the video every time I'm on the computer. It's such a good, old song. I think I'll play it at my wedding. No joke :)

If you really knew me you would know that I have to have something sweet after all of my meals.

Keepin' It Short

I'm going to keep this one short and sweet because I'm tired...

Today was looooong. And rainy slash snowy and very very gloomy. I slept til 10:30 and I was still so tired all day today. Classes were okay. I had chemistry lab..... Let's just say I've never hated a lab worse than the one today. It seriously took all 3 hours. I was so frustrated. But after I went to McAlisters with Jane, Jess, Maelena, and Chelsea. And afterwards we went to Quest. So that all made up for the terrible lab. Quest was so great, as usual. Lindsay, a Quest leader, and YoungLife leader, and YoungLife staffer, talked to us about contact work. When and if we become leaders we will be doing A LOT of contact work. I mean basically you go into a new school, high school might I add, and you totally put yourself out there. It's a crazy situation. But she talked about how when you go into that school, you go in with an identity of Christ, not as you. It was really cool the way she said it. We go in to a high school of lost, broken, confused kids and show them how much we love Jesus, and how they should too. I still can't get over how AWESOME that is!

Anyways, I saw Jesus today, and it was just really cool. So I thought I'd share. Lately I have been thinking a lot about money. I hate using my moms money for everything. I mean I'm 18 years old. I am very capable of having a job and making some of my own money. And also I know that I want to live somewhere next year that isn't home...which will cost money. I can't rely on my mom to always pay for everything. But today one of my teachers from high school, Mrs. Pratt, texted me during my treacherous lab and asked if I could babysit for a friend of hers. I know it's not like an actual job, but one, I love kids, and two, it is making money. I'm just hoping that this family and their kids will like me and I can continue to babysit for them. By the way, let me add I'm not just doing this for money. I really do love kids, so I think it will be something super fun to do, and I can get out of the house for a little while. I'm just really excited, and I think Jesus knows how money has been on my heart lately. He's a good guy that Jesus is :)

Night, friends.

If you really knew me you would know that I do not know how to study. And if I actually do study I wait til the day of usually to start.

(I say this because I have a chem quiz Friday that I haven't studied for at all)

Long Time No Read

Dang, it's been a little minute since I've posted! It kind of has been making me a little bit sad too! It helps me get out everything I've been dying to say, just haven't had the right person to say it too or the guts to actually say it. Well I'll catch you up on what's been going down....

Over the weekend I did nothing. Nothing at all. No joke. I just sat. And watched tv. And ate. And watched movies. And ate. And played Just Dance (by myself because my sister wouldn't play with me. I know it's embarrassing). I seriously did absolutely nothing. So this weekend I'm making it a priority to get out of my house and do something!!!!

Let's see, yesterday, Monday, I only had two classes. Didn't start ti 11:15 and was done by 2:15. It was so great. I wish I only had to class every day. After class Jane, Jess, and myself worked out. It was actually really entertaining and fun. We kind of just mess around for about 30 minutes and then we actually do something productive for like 15 minutes. Oh well, who cares. At least I'm moving my body, right? We finally had small group yesterday! It was so great to see everyone and talk about break and what fun stuff we did. We just spent the whole hour and a half talking to each other and catching up since it'd been like 2 whole months!! So crazy. We also kind of talked about how this semester is going to look for those of us who plan on being a Young Life leader. Crazy stuff! I honestly never thought I'd see this! I am way too pumped. We have to start memorizing scripture once a week, and I bet you're just dying to know the verse for this week. Well here it is....

I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

Galations 2:20

How cool is that to read?  Ponder on that.

So small group was way great. I love those girls, and I've loved getting to know them. So I'm definitely pumped to get to know them even better. After small group Jane, Jess, and myself went to Crossroads. It's like a church service held for college students at a church called Fellowship on Middlebrooke. It is so awesome. I get so much out of the services. The speaker has such a great way of saying what he's trying to say to us. No bullcrap. He just says it. Last night he did a sermon on Hell. Yeah, Hell. Scary, I know. But before he started he said that before went to that church, he realized that no other church he had ever gone to did a sermon on Hell. Why? Because people don't want to hear about it. The want to shove it to the side and pretend like it doesn't exist. Well, let me just say it does exist. He talked about how most people believe that Hell belongs to the devil and Heaven belongs to God. Wrong. Hell belongs to God. No matter what we think or believe, we will live forever...somewhere. Be it in the image of Christ or in the image of sin. That is so scary. I'm almost positive I had chill bumps the entire time he was speaking. I don't want to talk about it too much because it's kind of an intimidating subject and I don't want to freak anyone out. All in all, Monday was good.

Today has been pretty good too. I had 2 classes this morning and I have my last class tonight at 6:30. Not cool. But I've got to do it and get it over with. I'll thank myself later. And now here I am, just chatting away on the ole blog. Just a little while ago I did read Jesus Calling for the day and one of the verses to read was this...

So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

2 Corinthians 3:18

I wish I would think about this more. Of course, I focus on the temporary things way more than I focus on the eternal things. Grades, friends, money, school. WHY! I should be focusing on my relationship with JC. That is what really matters and that's what really counts. It's eternal.

Well, I think I'll nap before my night class. Or perhaps study for a Chemistry quiz I have coming up. Probably nap, though.

If you really knew me you would that I am left handed.

Dust & Major

Today has been a pretty great day. Long, but great. It was so good to be back at Quest this week and so all those familiar faces that we hadn't seen since break. Not to mention I missed Steph like crazy! I don't think we've ever gone that long without seeing each other.

Tonight at Quest Tim T. talked and he said something that has really been on my mind since we left. I don't remember where he heard it and such not, but basically he said it like this... back in the way way way olden days people would follow Rabbi's and other important people so closely that the dust from the rabbi would be on his followers. That is how we are suppose to be with Jesus. We are suppose to follow him so close that his dust is on us and reflects onto others. People should be able to look us and be like, oh that girl is following Jesus because I see his dust all over her. It's just a cool thought. And I want people to look at me that way.

Also tonight Tim brought up how he was an accounting major and his sophomore year he realized that he wasn't suppose to be. He was being called to be with high schoolers. So he was a math teacher for 5 years and now he has been on Young Life staff ever since. I am having second thoughts about my major, and I have been for a while now. I just don't know what I'm suppose to do. I pray about and I talk to Jesus about it, but I know I'm not just going to wake up one day with a note on my desk that says This is your major. Love, Jesus. It's hard. And I've been struggling with it for a while now. I get to the point where I am at peace and I am content with Nursing and then something like this happens. I just do not know. So it's something I'm just going to have to keep praying out. Jesus will let me know what I'm suppose to do.

Well, that's all my dust and major post has to say.

If you really knew me you would know that I have a freckle in my eye.

Rainy Day

Yes, today was super rainy. And for most that just means that you'll put on a rain jacket before you walk outside to your car or something. Not for me. That means where a rain jacket, and rain shoes, and put on layers because the rain is cold, and carry an umbrella. Oh, and don't even think about trying to do something to your hair. I feel like I've just been playing in the rain all day. It's all good though. I was definitely prepared today. I hate when it just comes and you have no gear.

Well today was a good day. Stat went well. I had an awkward break so I read a lot of Redeeming Love. Chem went well. After class I went to my best bud Courtney's house. Believe it or not I actually met Courtney as small group this year. And let me just say, she's a hoot. I really do love her a lot. I went over to her house to help her write a personal statement for her UT application. I don't think she'd mind me sharing this, so I will. Court is having a hard time deciding where she is suppose to be next year. She keeps going back and forth to UT and ETSU. Both have their positives and negatives. But I really want her here. I NEED her here whether she knows it or not. I spend most of my spare time with her. I tell her everything. And she is always there for me. I have other people I spend time with and tell things too, but I just feel so drawn to her. We get along so well. Well anyways, today we had a good chat about her future plans. It was good. I know she'll make the right choice, and whatever that choice be, I'll be happy for her and I know she will be absolutely fine wherever she is. After I left Courtney's I came back to campus, ate dinner with Jane and Jess, bought a book, and went to class. Yes, I went to class at 6:30. It stinks. It's really scary walking back to my dorm at 7:45 at night. But I made it! And now, as I type this, I am watching Biggest Loser, yet another show I am addicted to. It's so inspiring. These people rule. I think I cry just about every episode. Also at this time UT is playing Georgia. GO VOLS! I am in love with all UT sports. Seriously. I'm proud of our teams no matter what. After Biggest Loser goes off I will be watching Teen Mom 2. I love it, too. Probably too much. Y'all probably think I'm addicted to tv, but I really only watch tv if I know a specific show is on that I want to watch.

So today when I was reading Redeeming Love I came across a verse that I just loved. At the beginning of every chapter there is always a bible verse or a quote that usually goes along with the chapter a little bit. Well at the beginning of chapter 17 it said.... You are our letter...written not in ink, but with the Spirit of the living God, not on stone tablets, but on tablets of human hearts. 2 Corinthians 3:2-3 I couldn't stop thinking about it the whole time I was reading the book, so as soon as I got into class I busted out my whole and good that verse. Here's more of it......


Are we beginning to commend ourselves again? Or do we need, like some people, letters of recommendation to you or from you? You yourselves are our letter, written on our hearts, known and read by everybody. You show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone, but on tablets of human hearts. Such confidence as this is ours through Christ before God. Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God. He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant-- not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives.

2 Corinthians 3:1-6

Now here it is in the Message. (ps: the message is like a more modern way of saying what the Bible says. It's good stuff)

Does it sound like we're patting ourselves on the back, insisting on our credentials, asserting our authority? Well, we're not. Neither do we need letters of endorsement, either to you or from. You yourselves are all the endorsement we need. You very lives are a letter that anyone can ready by just looking at you. Christ himself wrote it-- not with ink, but with God's living Spirit; not chiseled into stone, but carved into human lives--and we publish it. We couldn't be more sure of ourselves in this-- that YOU, written by Christ himself for God, are our letter of recommendation. We wouldn't think of writing this kind of letter about ourselves. Only God can write such a letter. The plan wasn't written out with ink on paper, with pages and pages of legal footnotes, killing your spirit. It's written with Spirit on spirit, his life on our lives!

I just really liked it for some reason. I'm still researching and trying to figure out what exactly was going on. But I just liked it.


Just got some fantastic news that UT won!!! GO VOLS! This is great. I heard it was a nail-biter though. Those scare me.

Well I should probably do a little bit of school work. Tomorrow will be a long day. I have a 3 hour chem lab on my schedule :( BUT quest is tomorrow! So pumped.

If you really knew me you would know that I love chocolate chip cookies.
If you really knew me you would know that I don't shower very much.

Just Another Manic Monday

Well actually, my titled lied. It was more like a super boring Monday. As was the rest of my weekend. I did absolutely nothing. I pretty much felt bad all weekend, but I'll tell you about it anyways.

Let's see here, Saturday I posted. I didn't feel good at all. I think I watched Dinner for Schmucks with my mom. It was actually pretty much. Sunday, I still didn't feel good. I slept a lot. Oh, and I started reading Redeeming Love! It's been really good so far. It's about a christian novel written by Francine Rivers. It's about a girl who is a prostitute and this man who feels God calling him to marry her. I've been told that I need to read it by a million people, so I'm glad I'm finally getting around to it. Later that night I watched Social Network with my mom, sister, and her friend Bailey. Today I didn't do much of anything either. As soon as I woke up this morning I bought my books for school and printed off my lectures from Stat and Chem. That was pretty depressing. Then I watched Knocked Up. I know, sounds terrible, but I am OBSESSED with Katherine Heigl. No joke. I love her. So I really had to watch it. It was cute. Not as bad as it sounds. Later, my sister and I played Just Dance 2. If you've never played....you should! Asap! It's so much fun. It's a pretty good workout too. Not only from dancing, but from laughing :) When my mom got home she asked if I wanted to go to the tanning bed. I'd been turning it down for a while, but I finally gave in today. I'm trying not to go as much as I have been in the past years. I usually tan a lot before prom and such, but since I have nothing to be tan for I'm not going to go as often. I really do love to tan though. It's relaxing. After we tanned, we went to this place called I Do Weddings. No, I'm get married. They also sell prom dresses and such, and since my sister is going to 8th grade dance this year, she's starting to look for a dress. I'm super pumped about this. I've been waiting for this day since I can remember. Okay okay, not that long, but I'm still excited to help her shop for dresses and shoes and jewelry. Once we left the shop we went to get chinese. Went back home, ate, showered, and then headed back to the dorm. So here I am, in my box, watching The Bachelor. Speaking of.....

Who doesn't love this show? I mean yeah, I hate the concept, and it usually never works out in the end, but it's so addicting. My young life leader told me about this website a year or two ago called Reality Steve. Basically, he knows everything about all the reality shows. Like who wins. So yeah, I kind of already know. I can't help it. I can't wait til the end! So I would suggest not reading it if you're one of those people who doesn't like to find out until the last episode. And don't worry, I won't spill anything on here. But I really do love the show. 

This is totally random but I am SO excited for Quest this week. For those who don't know what I'm talking about, Quest is a program for people who are interested in becoming high school young life leaders. It is help just like a normal young life would be, it's just for college students. Well the reason I'm so excited is because this semester we spend every Wednesday night training to become a leader. And I could not be any more excited! I have known that I want to be a young life leader basically since I met my high school young life leader, Steph. She is the most christ-like, dependable, caring, loving, beautiful person I have ever met in my whole entire life. To be a high schooler and meet a college student who WANTS to spend time with me and tell me about Jesus and how much he loves me is the GREATEST thing ever. I've learned so much from her, and I still am. Fortunately she's still my small group leader. So I get to spend every Monday with her learning about Jesus and sharing my heart with her. I remember the first time I ever met Steph. She came to a lunch at Central, which is where I went to high school, and she came up to the table I was eating at and just started chatting with us like she had known us our whole life. I thought she was the weirdest person ever. I mean I was a sophomore, so I thought I was too cool for school. Not only was she chatting with us like nobody's business, but she asked me to go to a Smokey's Baseball game with her. Uh...no?? Why would I want to hang out with some college kid I don't even know. And better yet, why would SHE want to hang out with ME? I just thought it was really strange. Not to mention, what would I tell my mom? Oh hey mom I'm going to a Smokey's game with this girl who goes to UT that I met once. I can't imagine that would have gone over very well. Well,  I kept seeing this Steph character around school more and more. She was even coming to our cheerleading practices. So I talked to her more and more and more...and voila! Now 3+ years later we're closer than ever. Like I said before, she's one of the greatest girls I've ever met. I've learned so much from her and I don't think I could ever thank her enough for being there for me as just as she has been. Being a young life leader is such a passion of mine for this very reason. I hope I can be half as great of a leader to high school girls as Steph was to me. Also, one night at Sharp Top when I was there a week of so ago we had a Q&A session with girls who are leaders. We got to write down anonymous questions about being a leader and they answered them for us. It was so inspiring and it made me even more excited to get the show on the road. I'm just so glad that I found Jesus and that I get the chance to share Jesus with high school girls.

Well, unfortunately, I have school. So I should probably start getting ready for bed. Sorry for chatting so much. 

If you really knew me you would know that I love going to the dentist.

Dumb Dorm

Normally I would say I love my dorm. Or should I say my box. It's a great place. However, it makes me sick! I never get sick or feel bad, but last semester I ended up getting sick like 4 times. When I say sick I don't mean I'm throwing up or anything. Typically it happens like this...I got to bed one night and wake up the next morning feeling like I was run over by an 18 wheeler. My whole body is sore, I can't breathe, and I have the worst headache ever. Finally I went to the doc about it and he said that basically I'm starting to get allergies from the dorm. I've never had any allergy problems my whole life, so this is pretty unfortunate. I should've known that after not living in the dorm for over a month that I would have problems when I went back. So, I hate to say this, but I have nothing great to say today. I feel like poo. I may write more later.

If you really knew me you would know that I'm obsessed with food.

Good day

Today has been a pretty good day so far. I mean yeah, it's day 2 of school, why wouldn't everything be good? I went to Statistics today, and I think I'll enjoy the class. A girl from my small group, Brooke, is in the class too. It was very comforting to see a familiar face.

Speaking of small group, I REALLY miss those girls! I haven't seen most of them since the end of November! That's a really long time. Too long! I can't wait until we start meeting up again so we can catch up on everyone's break. Seeing those girls for an 1 and a half once a week makes my day and my week so much better. They all have their own story and it's so great to be able to get together and talk about Jesus and how he's been in each of our lives lately. I am definitely looking forward to starting back up our small group next week!

Well...after Stat I had an awkward break. I'll probably use that term a lot, because I just do. An awkward break is when it's too short/not long enough to go back to the dorm for a reasonable amount of time before heading to the next class. So basically my stat class gets out at 9:25, but my chem class does start til 11:10. By the time I would get back to my dorm I'd only have a little over an hour before I'd have to walk an even further distance. So I just went ahead and went to Buehler, which is the building my chem class was in this semester and last semester, and calculus and biology last semester too. Basically, I love Buehler. I've spent many hours just sitting in the hall playing on my computer, or reading a book, or cramming right before a test. I secretly love it. It's never really busy, and it's always very quiet. I always seem to get a lot done. So after stat I got myself some Starbucks and read a book in Buehler for about an hour until a girl in my small group, Maelena, otherwise known as Mel, showed up and we chatted. I started reading Safe Haven, a book by Nicholas Sparks, whom I'm obsessed with, (more deets later) yesterday. Well, I'm already like 200 pages in. It's so great. So Mel showed up and we got to chat, and the more we were taking, the more we kept talking about how we're kind of pumped for chemistry again. It's just so familiar. Same room, same teacher, same building, same friends. It was so great. AND I even payed attention in class today. Sometimes I would definitely consider myself a chemistry nerd. Today was one of those days, for sure. By the way, I'm really sorry I'm boring y'all with my not so exciting life. Jesus and school are my life, so that's probably all I'll ever talk about. Well, I'm done for a while....until 6:30. Yes, I have a class at 6:30. And to be honest, I'm a little bit nervous. It's going to be dark and cold and scary! Yikes! Pray for me.

Okay so I think now might be a good time to talk about my obsession with Nick Sparks. I guess I discovered him my senior year, maybe junior, but I'm almost positive I was a senior. I realized that he wrote The Notebook and A Walk to Remember so I was like maybe I should check this guy out. I told my mom I was interested in reading his books and she was like hey, I think I have a book by him. Of course, I was like there is no way you have a book by him so don't even look. Well she did. Of course. Duh. So she handed me A Bend in the Road. It was SO great! I finished it in like 2 days. Which I basically do that with all his other books too. So after reading that book I had to read more. And I've been in love ever since. It kind of surprised me that I liked them so much because they are love stories, but they're usually intense love stories with a little mystery behind them. It's so great. I've read them all but 3 I think. I kind of got off track and started reading other books for a change. But I'm back! Safe Haven is great so far. Y'all should read it.

Well sorry for being a chatty Cathy today. But one last thing....Today Jesus Calling, you know, the day my day devotional I mentioned in my last post...today it was so great again. I mean every day is great, but them keep pertaining to my life. So I like to share. Today it basically said that we should be attentive to the days ahead. Instead of just looking at is as another lame old day, look at is as WOW! Jesus gave me yet another day, that is totally different from any other day I've ever life. Each day is precious and unrepeatable. Do we ever think of is as precious? I sure don't. And it's unrepeatable. How stinkin' cool. No two days will EVER be a like. It's crazy. If you live each day close to Jesus it will never be dull. It will always be full of surprises. This part stood out to me the most...RESIST YOUR TENDENCY TO SEARCH FOR THE EASIEST ROUTE THROUG THE DAY. We have to be WILLING to follow Him where ever he so chooses to lead us. I think that's the scariest part. Follow someone else? Seriously?  Eh, I don't know about all that. But we have to. We think we are most knowledgable and that we are best in our own care, but we aren't. We are the safest when we make the choice when we are by His side. I just thought that was so great. Obviously I think I make the best decisions for myself and that I'm safe from harm. But I'm not unless I have Him by my side. It's definitely a comforting thought.

If you really knew me you would know that it really ticks me off when girls think leggings are pants. They aren't. And I know you are not warm outside right now.

If you really knew me you would know that I love onions.

Starting over....again.

Well, today is the first day of my second semester of college. No lie, I'm nervous. Super nervous. It's not like in grade school when you walk back into the same building with all the same people and you just go to different class rooms. I have new classes, which means new buildings, which means new class rooms, which means new people, which means new professors. Oh, and I have to use a building locator in UT's website just to find where my dang classes are! Tell me this isn't scary. Fortunately, I haven't even had my first class today. Unfortunately, I'm wait listed for a class that I really want and it starts today. Boo.

So last night I was so nervous, scared, sad, mad, excited, etc. about starting school today. I could not fall asleep for anything. So I prayed. I prayed that Jesus comfort me and somehow let me know everything will be okay. Well, check this out. This morning I woke up and read Jesus Calling. It's a devotional book with a different message for everyday of the year. But the message is written as if Jesus is talking to you. So I read today's message and the very first thing it says is...Let Me Prepare You for the day that stretches out before you. Yes! Please prepare me for the today. I need guidance! So if you keep reading basically he's saying I know exactly what today has in store for you even though you don't, and I know you want a map set out of exactly the twists and turns your about to take, but to be fully prepared for whatever happens today you just need to spend quality time with me. That's all! Just spend time with Jesus and he will equip you and make you ready for whatever obstacle comes our way. At the very end it says My presence is the best road map available. How true is that. It seems so easy to say and think, but is it really that easy to do. Is it easy to just say okay, I'll spend time with you and be 100% confident and sure that everything will be okay. I know it's hard for me, but it's something I'm definitely working on.

If anything exciting happens today in class, I'll be sure to let you know.

If you really knew me you would know that I still have to make an L with my fingers to know my lefts and rights.

Our Calling

One of our quiet times at camp had to do with our "calling". We read an excerpt from a book about a man who was never really brought up believing in callings, but he soon realized that he did have a calling. He kept saying he was looking through windows of his vocation. He thought his calling was seminary, but noticed that he really got more joy out of writing that he did preaching. He was troubled by this idea, but the more he thought about it the more he realized that when he was a child he loved to read books, and he especially loved to be read books by his teacher. This man discovered that he thought he knew is own calling, but really Jesus was just telling him through these windows, and he finally discovered what his calling was.

I am in the same spot as the man right now. I just knew for sure that I wanted to go to school for Nursing and that is what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. But basically all semester I have doubted my decision. Is nursing really what I will get the most joy from? Is nursing really what Jesus has been trying to tell me my whole life? The reason I ask myself these questions is because I continuously keep going back to teaching. From kindergarden til sophomore year teaching is what I would've said I wanted to do with my life. But then sometime during junior year I persuaded myself differently. All through elementary school and middle school I would play school. We had two desks, a chalkboard wall that I could write on, and I would go around after school looking in teachers recycling for extra worksheets they had thrown away. I would round up my sister and he friends and we would play school. And I'm talking real school. I made them do worksheets and workbook pages, I made them get their parents signature for bad grades, and we even had pizza parties. I was the best 10 year old teacher ever. Even as I type this I have a smirk on my face because I can remember just how fun I had pretending to be a teacher. This is why I am so confused. What am I called to do?

There was a prayer at the end of the excerpt we read that was the perfect prayer for me right now:

Help me, O God, to listen to what it is that makes me heart glad and to follow where it leads. May joy, not guilt, your voice, not the voice of others, your will, not my willingness, be the guides that lead me to my vocation. Help me to unearth the passion of my heart that lay buried in my youth. And help me to go over that ground again and again until I can hold in my hands, until I can hold in my hands, hold and treasure, your calling on my life.


On a sad note, today is the last day of my break. I'm devastated. I don't want to pack up my clothes. I don't want to move in the dorms. And I definitely don't want to start class tomorrow. Oh well. It's time. On a happy note, I'm pretty pumped to go to the UT basketball game tonight.

This is random, but at the end of every post I want to start doing an "if you really knew me you would know..." so here goes.

If you really knew me you would know that I've secretly missed living on campus.
If you really knew me you would know that I love basketball, and all of UT's players.
If you really knew me you would know that I purposely run over road kill in the road.